I was selected for a job that I had applied to three years in a row. So I was excited when I got the job. That excitement made it difficult for me to see the situation as it was. I was so focused on the outcome (of getting the job) that I forgot about listening to my own internal cues and whether it were the right fit.
Because of this, I came into the job only focused on having it and not doing what I needed. That summer was one of the most difficult because I ignored what I was feeling and just went with what “looked good”. So now, whenever I apply to a job, I make sure that I’m in the space to listen to my intuition. It was an important lesson. Now I’ve made it a priority to listen and to ask myself if I am in a mental space to process and to see if I can make an appropriate evaluation of my situation.
I got distracted...
This situation also taught me the importance of trying that job. I now know that I am not fond of working in hospital settings. Perhaps it’s the structure. There's a place for everyone. I give credit to those who do enjoy working at a hospital, but for me, it's not where I work best.
What I do know is that every time that we “lose” something, we also gain something. One of the most valuable parts about diving into new situations is that we learn about aspects that we appreciate and those that we don’t.
Back to the story...
When I was first out of college, I wasn’t confident about my skills. I ended up volunteering for an organization and my supervisor highlighted the importance of using Microsoft Office and Google Suites. But what I learned was that I was less interested in working in an office in front of a computer. From then on, I knew that my future endeavors needed to revolve around working with and helping people.